When the Spirit Hovers Again

The angel answered, “The Holy Spirit will come on you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the holy one to be born will be called the Son of God.”
Luke 1:35 (NIV)

Yesterday we finished our trek through the story of Esther in which God providentially works through two unassuming individuals to save the Jewish people from genocide. Mordecai and his niece Esther were exiles and foreigners in Persia. Mordecai was a bureaucratic paper pusher. Esther was just a young girl.

God loves to work through unassuming people of faith.

As we begin our Lenten trek through Luke’s biography of Jesus, we see this same paradigm again.

An old priest and his wife who live in the back-country hills of Judah.
A young girl in the backwater town of Nazareth.

These are nobodies. Simple people living faithfully where life has planted them. But through them, God is going to begin a new creation.

When Mary asks the angel Gabriel how she could be pregnant, since she was a virgin, he said that God’s Spirit would “overshadow” her. That’s a fascinating word to use. The Greek word means “to overshadow,” the language used when God’s presence fills the tabernacle. It also echoes the opening chapter of the Great Story in which God’s Spirit “hovers” over the chaos and creation begins. Gabriel is announcing that through Mary a new creation is about to begin, and Mary will become like an Ark of the New Covenant.

The Ark of the Covenant was the most sacred object in Israel.

Inside it were three things:

  • The stone tablets of the Law
  • A jar of manna
  • Aaron’s priestly staff

Above it rested what was known as the mercy seat, and God’s glory—the Shekinah—was said to dwell there. In other words, the Ark represented the place where God’s presence touched the earth. And when the Ark was placed in the tabernacle, Scripture says the cloud of God’s glory “overshadowed” it — and there’s that word again.

Now watch what Luke does.

Luke structures Mary’s visit to Elizabeth so that it mirrors an earlier story in Israel’s history.

The story appears in 2 Samuel, when King David brings the Ark to Jerusalem.

Let’s compare the passages.

Ark StoryMary Story
David travels to the hill country of JudahMary travels to the hill country of Judah
David asks: “How can the ark of the Lord come to me?”Elizabeth asks: “Why am I so favored that the mother of my Lord should come to me?”
The Ark stays in the house of Obed-Edom three monthsMary stays with Elizabeth about three months
David leaps/dances before the ArkJohn leaps in Elizabeth’s womb

Now, let’s compare what was in the Ark of the Covenant and what is inside of Mary…

Ark ContentsFulfillment in Mary
Stone tablets of the LawJesus — the living Word
Jar of mannaJesus — the bread of life
Aaron’s priestly staffJesus — the ultimate High Priest

Luke begins his version of Jesus’ story by telling us that God’s glory no longer lives in a golden box inside a temple.

Instead, it lives:

  • in the womb of a teenage girl
  • in a stable outside Bethlehem
  • in the life of a wandering rabbi with the calloused hands of a carpenter

God has moved out of the temple and into the neighborhood.

And what neighborhood?

Not the Temple Mount in Jerusalem, nor in glorious Rome— but to a back water town in Galilee. A rural nowhere where you’ll find simple people of faith living quiet, every day lives.

The kind of unassuming people God loves to use.

The same Spirit who overshadowed:

  • the waters of creation
  • the tabernacle in the wilderness
  • Mary in Nazareth

now chooses to dwell in ordinary lives that say yes to Him.

In the quiet this morning, my heart is mulling over the reality that God tends to create the most world-changing things in hidden places. The very theme I saw all over the place in Esther’s story.

Before creation, there was dark water.
Before redemption, there was a quiet womb.

The Spirit doesn’t only move in thunder.

Sometimes He hovers.

Over a life.
Over a calling.
Over a slow, unseen work of grace.

And when He does, creation happens all over again.

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!
2 Corinthians 5:17 (NIV)

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Serving in Small Empires

Mordecai the Jew was second in rank to King Xerxes, preeminent among the Jews, and held in high esteem by his many fellow Jews, because he worked for the good of his people and spoke up for the welfare of all the Jews.
Esther 10:3 (NIV)

I have often mentioned in these blog posts that the Great Story from Genesis to Revelation is primarily a story of conflict between God’s Kingdom and human empire. The story of Esther is fascinating because it is about God’s people living in exile within a foreign empire. Mordecai and Esther begin the story as anonymous cogs within the Persian Empire, but they are placed in positions where they can make a positive difference for their people within an antagonistic system.

This theme is echoed in the teachings of Jesus, whose followers were marginalized minions operating under occupation by the Roman Empire and corrupt authority of the ruling religious system. The letters of the New Testament are equally addressed to followers of Jesus living through persecution from those same two kingdoms of this world.

Along my life journey, I’ve observed that the theme of “human empire” has far reaching implications. Empire exists at a number of levels. In my career I have worked with numerous clients—from giant global corporations to small family businesses. Each one is a type of human empire with a certain degree of control and impact on the lives of human beings. Likewise, the nuclear family is a type of human empire. I’ve observed what happens to children who grow up in a tyrannical home or a home in which leadership is passive or absent.

Of course, my life itself is a micro-level human empire. I have free will. I control my thoughts, words, actions, and choices.

Today’s chapter is a three-verse epilogue to the story of Esther. After all the intrigue, the fear, the courage, and the great turning of the tables, the story ends quietly. Mordecai simply goes to work—seeking the good of his people and speaking for their welfare. No miracles split the sky. No prophets thunder from the hills. Life resumes under the vast reign of Xerxes I.

Yet God placed them in positions of influence within that system.

In those positions they could serve themselves, or they could use their influence for the good of others. Esther ends with Mordecai choosing the latter.

In the quiet this morning I find myself reflecting on the reality that I face the same choice every day in every little empire where the paperwork, bureaucracy, and machinations of my life unfold.

My personal life
My marriage and family
My business
My community
My church

Each day I choose who I am going to serve.

And perhaps that is the final lesson of Esther: God’s hand is often most present not in spectacle but in faithful people who quietly use whatever influence they have for the good of others. And who knows? Perhaps that quiet faithfulness is exactly how God continues to turn the tables in our world today — one small empire at a time.

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Miraculous Turnarounds

On the thirteenth day of the twelfth month, the month of Adar, the edict commanded by the king was to be carried out. On this day the enemies of the Jews had hoped to overpower them, but now the tables were turned and the Jews got the upper hand over those who hated them. 
Esther 9:1 (NIV)

It’s time for March Madness. Here in Iowa the state tournaments are in full swing. Just last week a girls team that was down by six points with just 46 seconds ended up winning by five. An 11-point swing in less than one minute.

You gotta love a miraculous last minute turnaround.

And that, in many ways, is the heartbeat of Esther.

What looked like certain doom becomes eucatastrophic deliverance.

#Original SituationThe ReversalWhere It Happens
1Queen Vashti refuses the king and is removedEsther, a Jewish orphan, becomes queenEsther 1–2
2Esther hides her Jewish identityHer identity becomes the very thing that saves her peopleEsther 2 → Esther 7
3Mordecai saves the king’s life but receives no recognitionHis forgotten act becomes the turning point of the storyEsther 2:21–23 → Esther 6
4Haman rises to power as the king’s chief officialMordecai is elevated to that same positionEsther 3 → Esther 10
5Haman demands Mordecai bow before himHaman must lead Mordecai through the city honoring himEsther 3 → Esther 6:11
6Haman plans genocide against the JewsThe Jews gain the legal right to defend themselvesEsther 3 → Esther 8
7A royal decree orders the destruction of the JewsA second decree authorizes their protection and victoryEsther 3:13 → Esther 8:11
8Haman builds gallows to execute MordecaiHaman is executed on the very gallows he builtEsther 5:14 → Esther 7:10
9Haman expects honor from the kingMordecai receives the honor insteadEsther 6
10The Jews prepare for slaughter on the chosen dayTheir enemies are defeated on that very dayEsther 9:1
11Fear of the empire hangs over the JewsFear of the Jews falls upon the empireEsther 9:2
12The day chosen by lot (Pur) for Jewish destructionThe day becomes a festival celebrating Jewish deliverance (Purim)Esther 9:26
13Haman’s house rises in powerHis sons and lineage are destroyedEsther 9:7–10
14Mordecai sits outside the gate in sackclothMordecai leaves the palace in royal robes and authorityEsther 4:1 → Esther 8:15

Esther isn’t just a story of survival. It’s a story of reversal.

As I meditated on this in the quiet this morning I was reminded that this story does not exist isolated among the ancient stories in the Great Story. They are connected as they progressively lead toward the larger climax of the Great Story.

God has promised in Eden that One would come to deliver humanity from the consequences of sin and death. Later, God reveals that this Anointed One, Deliverer, and Messiah would be born through the Hebrew people. While God is never mentioned in the story of Esther, His fingerprints are everywhere. Without this miraculous turnaround—if the Hebrew people had been wiped out—God’s promise could not be fulfilled.

Doom looked certain for Moses and the Hebrews when the Egyptian army was closing in on them. In a miraculous turnaround, God parts the waters for the Hebrews then closes the waters in on the Egyptian army.

Doom looked certain for David as King Saul, the man with all of the power, put a price on his head. David refused to take matters into his own hands, trusting that if God wanted him on the throne as promised, God would see it done. It didn’t happen immediately. But the events that followed were no less than a miraculous turnaround of fortunes. The house of Saul fell (a bit like Haman), and the house of David was established.

Throughout the Great Story…

Schemes unfold.
Enemies seem powerful.
God appears silent.

But Scripture insists something else is happening.

Behind the curtain of history…God is writing reversals.

The cross itself was the ultimate reversal in history.

  • The day meant to destroy Jesus became the day that destroyed death.
  • The Prince of this World and his kingdoms thought they had won.
  • But it was only Friday…Sunday was coming.

The Kingdom of God loves a last-minute plot twist.

So here’s the invitation today’s chapter whispers to me:

The day marked for my defeat may already be scheduled for my deliverance.

The lot has been cast.

But heaven still controls the calendar.

And if I listen closely … I can almost hear the music swelling as the curtain prepares to fall.

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In a System I Don’t Control

Esther again pleaded with the king, falling at his feet and weeping. She begged him to put an end to the evil plan of Haman the Agagite, which he had devised against the Jews.
Esther 8:3 (NIV)

Over the course of my career I’ve worked with a veritable plethora of clients—from companies you’d instantly recognize to many you’ve never heard of. For me, one of the most fascinating aspects of that journey has been encountering so many different corporate cultures.

In my upcoming book This Call May Be Monitored (What Eavesdropping on Corporate America Taught Me About Business and Life) [FYI: Book available mid-late April], I share a number of different experiences. One of them included a major retailer whose contact center was in the lower level of their corporate headquarters. Internally, we referred to it as “The Bunker.”

The Bunker was a rather small space crammed tight with tiny work stations. Agents were packed in like sardines. It was loud and uncomfortable. Agents were metaphorically chained to their desks. If you needed to use the restroom you were required to raise your hand and ask permission. It was no wonder they were struggling with poor customer experiences delivered by unhappy agents.

One of the challenges I have often faced in my career is that of trying to help clients move the needle on the customer experience within an antagonistic system. Often our team is hired by a lower-level executive who has little influence over whoever occupies the corner office of the C-suite. And corporate culture always flows out of the corner office.

In today’s chapter, Esther finds herself in a position that is both positive and precarious. Her nemesis, Haman, is dead but Haman’s genocidal decree remains in place. Victory over an enemy is not enough if the system he built still stands. She must risk her life a second time to approach the King, plead for her people, and request a reversal of his earlier decree.

Jewish scholars view Esther as a road map for life in exile and diaspora. Both Mordecai and Esther have no control over the culture of the foreign Persian Empire in which they live. Their exile began under the Babylonian Empire. Now the Persian Empire holds sway. In this game of thrones, they found themselves having to shift, adapt, and learn to live under very different cultures and realities.

Paul in his letter to the believers in Corinth echoes this same paradigm for followers of Jesus:

Though I am free and belong to no one, I have made myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God’s law but am under Christ’s law), so as to win those not having the law. To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some. I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.
1 Corinthians 9:19-23 (NIV)

One of the joys of my career has been to participate with clients in making positive and transformative changes. The client began listening to customers and addressing the systemic issues that were undermining the customer experience. The Bunker was eventually scuttled and agents moved into a modern, spacious contact center space. The company grew and became even more profitable. I had a front row seat and had the opportunity of participating in the transformation.

In the quiet this morning, I’m reminded that I will often find myself operating within dysfunctional systems I don’t control. What I do control, however, are my own words and actions — and how I personally operate within that system. I can either participate in the dysfunction, or I can become an agent of change.

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Evil Implodes

Then Harbona, one of the eunuchs attending the king, said, “A pole reaching to a height of fifty cubits stands by Haman’s house. He had it set up for Mordecai, who spoke up to help the king.”
The king said, “Impale him on it!”

Esther 7:9 (NIV)

Evil eventually implodes. It is inherently unstable.

This is a lesson that I’ve learned on my journey. The first place I remember learning it was in The Lord of the Rings. It’s a recurring theme throughout the trilogy, but I first noticed it in the character of Gollum. He’s a despicable creature, driven from the start by selfish hunger for the Ring. Despite the opportunity to kill the creature as an act of justice, Gandalf wisely refuses. Mercy, he suggests, may prove wiser than vengeance—because the story isn’t done yet.

Evil eventually implodes—and when it does, it often finds its own unforeseen justice. Were it not for Gollum’s selfish intent and lust for the Ring, it would never have been destroyed.

I thought about this as I meditated on today’s short, but thrilling climactic chapter in Esther’s story. The entire story of Esther is a study in “reversals,” and today’s chapter is full of them as the evil Haman’s plot quickly implodes on him.

Haman’s PlanActual Outcome
Mordecai will be impaledHaman is impaled
Esther will dieEsther triumphs
Haman gains honorMordecai gains honor
Haman controls the kingThe king destroys Haman

In a wonderful ironic cosmic twist, Haman is impaled on his own spike that had been set up to kill Mordecai.

Evil eventually implodes. It is inherently unstable.

In the quiet this morning, I take solace in this simple truth as each morning Wendy and I eat our breakfast, peruse the news, and discuss the evils of the world.

Evil often looks unstoppable—until the moment it collapses.

For six chapters Haman appears untouchable:

  • He has royal authority.
  • He controls the narrative.
  • He manipulates the king.
  • He has the gallows ready.

But beneath the surface, the story is quietly turning.

God’s providence works like underground water.

Silent.
Invisible.
Patient.

Until suddenly the earth gives way.

Haman’s downfall happens in minutes.

Years of arrogance.
Then one moment of collapse

The hard part is in the waiting and the discerning. It’s one of the places where I find that God’s ways are not my ways. Blessing those who curse me and praying for my enemies doesn’t feel like justice, and God asks that I leave the justice to Him and the larger Great Story.

Like Gandalf understanding that Gollum may yet have a role to play in the tale of the Ring.

But I don’t want to wait. I want justice now.

There are seasons in life when it feels like Haman is winning.

The arrogant rise.
The cruel prosper.
The faithful seem powerless.

Esther reminds me that history has trap doors built into it. The proud eventually step on them. Evil implodes.

I am asked to do what Esther did:

Wait.
Discern the moment.
Speak when the time is right.

And when the moment arrives, a single courageous and well-crafted sentence can change everything.

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The Machinery of Heaven

That night the king could not sleep…
Esther 6:1a (NIV)

My entire life I have struggled with bouts of insomnia. I wake in the wee hours. My brain spins like a top. I can’t shut it off.

It is what it is.

One remedy I’ve discovered over the years is to lay on the couch and put something on the television that I really like, but I know won’t hold my attention. I learned this with Casablanca. It’s my all-time favorite movie, but I’ve watched it countless times. I know it by heart. My brain knows it so well that it sort of shuts down and I can fall back asleep. In recent years it’s been Ken Burns’ documentary The Civil War. Same concept. Something that stimulates my heart but, because of familiarity, not my brain.

As I begin writing today’s post it’s just before 4:00 a.m. I’ve been up since around 2:30. How ironic that when I decided to meditate on today’s chapter it begins with: “That night the king couldn’t sleep.”

God definitely has a sense of humor.

And, it just might be one of the most understated turning points in the entire Great Story.

For five chapters the story of Esther has been building.

A proud and impetuous emperor finds his entire empire threatened when his queen refuses to be summoned and placed on display.

A young Jewish girl taken against her will, groomed in a harem, chosen above all of the hundreds of other candidates to be named queen.

A rising star of the empire has a burr under his saddle because one man, Esther’s uncle, refuses to bow to him like a god. Instead of dealing with the man, he plots to kill the man’s entire race.

The entire story, and the history of an entire race hinges on one man’s bout with insomnia.

The king can’t sleep. There’s no television, so he chooses the next best thing. He has his servant read something boring. The chronicles of his own reign. Instead of putting him to sleep, the King’s brain latches on to something he’d overlooked.

The events of today’s chapter are so layered with meaning—so dripping with irony—that it’s hard to do them justice with a simple summary.

Hearing the chronicles read in his insomnia, the king realizes Mordecai saved his life in unearthing an assassination plot. He also realizes that nothing had been done to honor Mordecai for his service. This was not only an oversight, but in Persian culture it was a grave dishonor. The king is motivated to correct this by doubly honoring the man who saved his life.

Haman, who has just built the gallows to execute Mordecai, enters the king’s court to request permission to kill the very man the King wants to doubly honor.

Before he can do so, the King asks Haman to describe how he should honor a man in whom he delights. In his ego, Haman assumes it’s himself, so he goes over the top in offering his wish list.

The king agrees to the list, then unwittingly informs Haman that the honoree is his nemesis, Mordecai, the very man Haman wants to execute. Haman is tasked with the humiliation of overseeing the public honoring of his own enemy.

What makes Esther unique in Scripture is that God is never named. Yet His fingerprints are everywhere.

Consider the chain reaction in this chapter:

A king can’t sleep.
A random scroll is chosen.
A forgotten act is rediscovered.
The most prideful man in Persia walks into the room at the worst possible moment.
The enemy of Mordecai becomes the herald of his honor.

None of those events are miraculous, yet together they form a miracle.

Along this life journey I’ve experienced again and again that God’s providence hides inside ordinary moments. The turning points of my life rarely look like thunder from heaven. More often they look like:

a conversation
a delay
a memory resurfacing
a sleepless night

The machinery of heaven is astonishingly quiet.

And, so I finish up this post in the wee hours meditating on the fact that sometimes insomnia is just insomnia. But in at least one instance, insomnia was the hinge that changed the course of history.

Serving a God who is authoring the Great Story, and authoring my story within it, means that even the most ordinary of daily moments are contributing to a larger plot I will never fully know this side of eternity. My job is to traverse each day on this earthly journey loving God and loving every person, every fellow pilgrim I meet, to the best of my ability.

Esther reminds me that I can trust God’s providence with the rest of my story—even in the quiet moments when nothing seems to be happening.

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Shrewd

Esther replied, “My petition and my request is this: If the king regards me with favor and if it pleases the king to grant my petition and fulfill my request, let the king and Haman come tomorrow to the banquet I will prepare for them. Then I will answer the king’s question.”
Esther 5:7-8 (NIV)

In The Godfather, Michael Corleone shares one of the secrets of his success with a compatriot. “My father always said, ‘Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.”

It wasn’t just a line. It’s a theme running through the entire trilogy of the classic trilogy. While the family celebrates, Vito eliminates rivals. Michael embraces betrayers at the table, only to deal with them when the moment is right. Baptisms and executions unfold in parallel.

One of the more fascinating, and challenging, of Jesus’ parables are those that honor shrewdness. The vineyard owner hires workers throughout the day and agrees to pay each the same amount of money. Those who worked ten hours agreed to the same wage as those who worked two. They are angry, but Jesus says that the vineyard owner was generous, and while Jesus doesn’t specifically say it, the owner was also shrewd. In another parable, a manager who has just been sacked goes to all the vendors who owe his boss money and settles their debts for a fraction of what’s owed. In the parable, the fired manager is complimented for being so shrewd.

These things came to mind this morning as I read today’s chapter. Esther is Queen. The villain Haman has set genocide into motion for all the Jews in the Persian Empire. Mordecai has implored Esther that God has put her on the throne “for such a time as this.” Now, she has to risk her life by going to the King without being summoned, and pray he shows her his favor.

Once again, the author of Esther’s story proves a master story-teller, for today’s chapter does not resolve a single thread of the story line. Instead it builds the tension and ratchets up the anticipation.

And Esther proves herself shrewd.

She goes to the king in full royal regalia.
The king likes bright, shiny, beautiful things, and she knows it.
She doesn’t barge into the throne room making accusations.
The king loves banquets, and being honored. They say the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. Rather than calling Haman out in a courtroom, let’s invite him to a feast.
Even with the king begging her to tell him what she wants to talk to him about, and seemingly disposed to do whatever she requests, she puts him off a second time and invites him and Haman to a second feast.
Esther understands the appetites of power — indulgence and intrigue — and she feeds both.

Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.

In the quiet this morning, I find myself meditating on the lessons Esther has for me with her shrewdness.

I rush into rooms swinging anger.
Esther enters wearing dignity.
I demand justice now.
Esther prepares a table.
I confront fast and furiously.
Esther lets pride expose itself.

Esther reminds me that when it comes to dealing with enemies and those who wish me ill will, I don’t need to force the outcome.

Faith is not frantic. It is patient courage.

Esther channels Paul’s advice to the believers in Rome (who were dealing with their own brand of enemies wanting them dead):

Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord. On the contrary:
“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
    if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”

In addition, Esther wears her identity. She doesn’t enter the King’s presence as an orphan. She enters as queen.

As a child of God, I am a child of the King. I can approach the “throne of grace” with the matter of any enemy I may have. And I don’t approach God or the world in rags of insecurity.

The gallows may be rising in someone else’s backyard.
The banquet may still be unfinished.
But I am robed in calling.
And I trust the Author with the timing of the third act.

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Choosing Real

When Esther’s eunuchs and female attendants came and told her about Mordecai, she was in great distress. She sent clothes for him to put on instead of his sackcloth, but he would not accept them.
Esther 4:4 (NIV)

One of the things that makes our little town of Pella, Iowa unique is the importance our community places on the heritage of our Dutch tradition. It’s not casual. It’s a commitment. So much so, in fact, that even businesses must agree to put a little traditional Dutch flair in the architecture of their storefronts. No exceptions. Here in Pella, even Walmart, McDonalds, and Starbucks have a “Dutch Front.”

There’s a spiritual parable in this reality that many in our community have talked about for years. Behind the “Dutch Front” a building is just a building, a business is a business, and there’s no real differentiation from any building or business in the next town over. In Pella, it just “looks” quaint and perfect from the outside.

I thought about this as I read today’s chapter. As Haman’s decree to annihilate and commit genocide against the Jews living in the Persian Empire is spread, Esther’s Uncle Mordecai goes into ritual mourning, putting on sackcloth and covering himself with ashes as he stands outside the King’s Gate. He can’t enter, however.

No one in mourning was allowed inside the palace.

Queen Esther’s people notice the change. There has obviously been regular messages sent back-and-forth between Esther and her Uncle, so as soon as they see him in “mourning” they mention it to the queen. She is distressed and sends for Mordecai and sends a change of clothes.

No one in mourning was allowed inside the palace.

Mordecai refuses and sends a message along with a copy of Haman’s genocidal decree to Esther through her assistant.

What struck me as I meditated on this in the quiet this morning is that the rule sounds ceremonial. But it’s deeply symbolic.

You cannot bring grief into the palace.

Power prefers denial.

The empire runs on appearances:

  • silk instead of sackcloth
  • banquets instead of mourning
  • decrees instead of tears

But reality waits outside the gate.

It always does.

Inside the palace, Esther is insulated. Protected. Sheltered from the smoke rising outside the gate. Her first instinct is telling. She sends Mordecai clothes.

“I want to see you, Uncle. But you have to look the part. No sadness. No ashes. Come inside and pretend with the rest of us that everything is lovely.”

Esther tries to restore dignity instead of confronting danger.

Comfort before truth.

Appearance before reality.

It’s a profoundly human reflex. We want problems to be smaller than they are. We want ashes replaced with garments. We want the crisis to be cosmetic.

We want to maintain the illusion that life is always quaint and perfect behind the Dutch Front others see from the street.

Mordecai refuses.

Some truths cannot be dressed up.

And that’s a life lesson Esther is about to learn.

Life is messy. Life is hard. And sooner or later, I will face a moment when pretending is no longer an option. I might try to hide it. I might dress myself up in bright clothes and force a fake smile on my face, but it won’t change the circumstances.

One of the lessons I’ve have learned along this life journey is that it’s best to choose to get real about what’s real.

That is the terror of this chapter. Not that Esther might die, but that she might refuse. Because Mordecai says the quiet part out loud: Deliverance will come... but you and your father’s house will perish.

God’s purposes do not depend on my cooperation.

My participation in them does.

And here is where today’s chapter gets real. I observe that we all to some degree like life with some version of a Dutch Front. I want safety and certainty. I want easy. I want happy. I want everything to be alright at all times. And even when that’s not true, I want everyone around me to perceive that I have it all together. Everything is beautiful behind Tom’s Pinterest-worthy, Instagram curated, Facebook projected life.

Esther finds out that life sometimes give us the opposite.

She and her people have received a death sentence. She is between a rock and a hard place. She can do something about it, but that requires getting real, breaking protocol, and risking everything.

No guarantee of success
No promise of survival
No assurance of favor.

Only this: You are here. This is your moment.

And faith answers with the most dangerous words a human being can say: “If I perish, I perish.

That is the line where spectators become participants.

The line where belief becomes action.

The line where providence finds a human partner.

Today’s chapter is where Esther stops being the girl the story happened to…

…and becomes the woman the story moves through.

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Bowing

All the royal officials at the king’s gate knelt down and paid honor to Haman, for the king had commanded this concerning him. But Mordecai would not kneel down or pay him honor.
Esther 3:2 (NIV)

It’s hard to believe that in April I’ll mark twenty years of chapter-a-day blogging. Two decades of mornings like this — coffee cooling, Scripture open, asking what the Great Story is doing in my small one. Along the way, some lessons have etched themselves in my mind and soul. One of those things is the repeated refrain “everything is connected.”

With today’s chapter, the story of Esther takes a dark turn. Vashti made her exit. Esther made her entrance. Now, it’s time for the villain of the story to take the stage. His name is Haman the Agagite. He is a rising star in the Xerxes administration. He climbs the imperial ladder and finds himself in the position of Xerxes right-hand man. He’s the second most powerful man of the world’s largest empire. With the position comes wealth, status, and the ability to sway the emperor.

When Haman and his entourage enter and leave the palace each day, the people in the streets were told to bow to Haman. History is filled with examples of what tyrants, monarchs, and dictators can easily make the masses do without question. Haman the Agagite is no different than men who came before him, and many men who would come after him. He commuted to work, and an empire bent at the waist as he passed.

One man refused.

Mordecai.

For days, Mordecai stands while everyone bows. No protest. No screaming about injustice. No raised placards. Just quiet refusal. Bowing is never just political. It is always, at some level, spiritual.

Tyrants, monarchs, and dictators don’t react well to those who refuse to bow. Haman is no different. Dishonored, angry, and enraged by Mordy’s daily refusal to bow, Haman institutes an internal investigation to discover the identity of his ego’s nemesis. That’s when he discovers that Mordecai is a Jew.

Stop right there.

I mentioned in yesterday’s post/podcast that a theme of Esther are things that are hidden. With the revelation of Mordecai’s nationality, there is a hidden plot twist lost to most readers.

When introduced in the story, we learn that Uncle Mordy was a descendant of Kish of the Hebrew tribe of Benjamin.

Reach back into the Great Story hundreds of years and there was another son of Kish of the tribe of Benjamin named Saul. He was the first king of Israel. One of the climactic moments of Saul’s tragic reign happens in 1 Samuel 15. He is fighting against Agag, king of the Amalekites. His instructions were to destroy Agag’s army completely. Saul failed to do so.

Fast forward hundreds of years in the empire of Persia.

Mordecai — descendant of Kish, from the same line as Saul — meets Haman, descendant of Agag.

Saul’s disobedience left a thread unfinished — and history has a way of tugging loose threads.

What goes around, comes around.

In the Great Story, everything is connected.

Mordecai is also not alone in his refusal to bow. He has other compatriots in the same exile who endured another tyrants demand to bow. Their names were Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. In fact, they served the previous empire under Nebuchadnezzar with their friend Daniel. Daniel survived to serve the Persian emperor, as well. Mordecai may have even crossed paths with him as an administrator in employ of the same empire. There is a precedent for Mordecai’s quiet courage.

In the Great Story, everything is connected.

Ancient hatreds are rekindled. One man refuses to bow and sparks Haman’s prejudices against an entire people. The second most powerful man in the world’s largest empire decides to kill all the Jews in the Empire. He plots a genocide. Long before there was Hitler and Himmler there was a man named Haman.

The Great Story and our history are also connected. As I mentioned in yesterday’s post, the story God is authoring in me is part of the Great Story He is authoring between Genesis and Revelation.

In the quiet this morning, this leaves me to asking myself an important rhetorical question.

Where do I bow?

The masses in Susa simply bowed. It was practical, safe, and expected.

Only Uncle Mordy stood.

Faith often begins there, not with heroics — just a quiet spine.

One man standing exposes evil, provokes hatred, and begins deliverance. God often writes history through the smallest acts of loyalty. Mordecai’s refusal looks insignificant. But heaven notices loyalty that makes empires rage. And sometimes the whole story turns on one person who stays standing when everyone else kneels.

What would it take to make me bow?

That’s where today’s chapter ends, and where my story connects and continues.

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Taken

When the king’s order and edict had been proclaimed, many young women were brought to the citadel of Susa and put under the care of Hegai. Esther also was taken to the king’s palace and entrusted to Hegai, who had charge of the harem.
Esther 2:8 (NIV)

I am a certified “Girl Dad.” No sons, two daughters. I played dress up. I had make-up applied and my hair done. One of the greatest compliments of my entire life was when my young daughter told their mother they wanted daddy to do their hair before school.

Badge of honor.

And, of course, there were story times and Disney Princesses. The girls grew up during the era when Disney released classics like The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, and Aladdin for the very first time. I’m pretty sure I had the entire script and all the lyrics of both Beauty and the Beast and Aladdin completely memorized at one point because I heard them so many times.

As a Girl Dad I used my authority to ensure Taylor and Madison were exposed to Tolkien and Lewis at bedtime. Nevertheless, there is no doubt that a little girl’s heart is enamored with beautiful, common women who become a princess.

The story of Esther is commonly referenced as a Disneyesque princess story. The bones are all there. A young foreign girl. She’s beautiful. Of all the beautiful girls in the empire she finds the King’s favor. In Sunday School classes and children’s bedtime Bible stories, it reads this way.

But, the real story is not that.

One of the themes of Esther is that of things being hidden. So far in the first two chapters we find Uncle Mordy instructing Esther to hide her true nationality. There is a hidden plot to kill the King. We’re going to find a lot of things hidden in the story. This is ironic, because also what is hidden is just how brutal the real story is.

Esther is a Jew living in exile in a foreign land.
Mordecai tells her to hide her nationality because if it was revealed it would likely mean banishment at best, at worst execution.
Esther was taken. The verb is used twice. No choice. Not chosen. Taken.

This is not a beauty pageant. It’s a brutal imperial machine designed and built to provide the King with a different top-shelf, flesh-and-blood toy for his every sexual whim every.single.night.

It’s ancient, legalized sex-traffic.

Esther had no choices. She was forced into her circumstances.
Forced from her home into the servitude of an imperial harem.
Forced to live among hundreds of women. Every one of them a rival.
Forced into regimented treatments to turn her into an object.
Forced to learn how to sexually please the king, whatever he wanted.
Forced to be a royal whore for one night which doubled as an audition.

It doesn’t take a Girl Dad to tell you, that’s sick.

This isn’t a fairy-tale.
Esther isn’t Jasmine on a magic carpet singing A Whole New World.
Esther is more Destiny’s Child roaring out a gritty I’m a Survivor.

And here’s the truth that’s uncomfortable for any who want the Christian life to be it’s own form of fairy-tale: God’s providence does not sanitize the system before He begins working within it.

Life is messy. Life is hard. Ordinary human beings find themselves in horrific and tragic circumstances every day, all over the world.

God is not absent.

He is moving silently through an uncle’s devotion, a whispered plot, the granting of a young girl enough wisdom to know she should heed the advice of an advisor who knows things others don’t.

Amidst horrific and tragic circumstances, God is crafting a Story that the characters will not realize until several more chapters are written.

God’s hand in the plot is often hidden until later chapters of life reveal it.

I know that I always want Chapter 4 clarity while I am living in Chapter 2 confusion. I want purpose explained before obedience is required. I want the rescue before the risk.

But today’s chapter suggests something quieter and deeper:

I don’t need to know the reason to trust the Story in the moment.

Faith often means accepting the oil and perfume seasons — the long preparations, the uncomfortable lessons no one wants to talk about. The agonizing realities that seem pointless — trusting that God is doing invisible work.

Somewhere right now there is a door I walked through that felt ordinary.

Somewhere there is a conversation I thought was small.

Somewhere there is a record being written I have already forgotten.

And years from now I may discover:

That was the hinge.

That was the turning point.

That was the moment God quietly positioned me — for something still waiting to be revealed.

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Just another wayfarer on life's journey, headed for Home. I'm carrying The Message, and I'm definitely waiting for Guffman.