“I Want to See!” (CaD Matt 20) – Wayfarer
“So the last will be first, and the first will be last.”
Matthew 20:16 (NIV)
Jesus is making His way to Jerusalem. Just a few weeks ago, followers of Jesus around the world just finished our annual memorial of the events that are about to transpire in Matthew’s version of The Jesus Story. Jesus well knows what is about to happen.
What struck me as I meditated on today’s chapter is the connection between the events. Jesus has just finished talking to the eagle scout, who walked away sad and chose not to follow Jesus because he was unwilling to do the one thing Jesus’ said was keeping him from entering Life. Peter points out that he and the boys had left everything to follow Jesus, which Jesus commends sharing that there will eventually be a special place in heaven for them in the end, at the “renewal of all things.”
I have to keep this in mind as we enter into today’s chapter and remember that the chapters and verses of Matthew’s version of the story were added hundreds of years after it was written. When Matthew penned these episodes, they all flowed together. Jesus is talking about who enters Life, who gets it, and who doesn’t. He utters His famous line “many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.” He’s talking about the economy and spiritual principles of God’s Kingdom, which operate differently than the kingdoms of this world.
To illustrate this, Jesus tells the parable at the beginning of today’s chapter. A vineyard owner hires workers to work in his vineyard throughout the course of the day. At the end of the day, they each receive the same pay. This has those who’d been working before sunset furious and crying out for union representation. But the landowner points out that they had agreed to the terms, it was his money to do with what he wanted, and the truth of the matter was that they were envious of those to whom he’d been generous. Jesus then repeats “many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.” The parable is an illustration of this spiritual principle, which relates back to what has just transpired.
The eagle scout chose out of God’s Kingdom economics. The disciples had chosen in.
But, they still don’t get it.
To double down on the lesson, Jesus now predicts His suffering, persecution, and death for the third time (and once again, Matthew the Quirk finds and shares the conspicuous number three). Jesus came not to set up an earthly kingdom, but to bring an eternally spiritual kingdom to earth. In the economics of God’s Kingdom, the one who gives receives, the one who is last will be first, the one who sacrifices His life will find it, and the one who dies will be born again to new life.
Just then, James and John’s mother sees an opportunity. Jesus has just mentioned that in the end, at the renewal of all things, in God’s Kingdom The Twelve will have special places of honor and a special role. She wants to make sure her boys have a special position within the special places of honor and the special roles Jesus is talking about. She pulls her boys up with her to speak to Jesus.
Jesus asks what she wants. She tells Him she wants her boys to have the positions of honor on Jesus’ left and right. She wants her boys to be first among the first. She is their union representation trying to make sure they get what she thinks they have earned, and in so doing she will have the honor of knowing her boys have positions of prominence that afford her to brag about them to all the other Jewish mothers.
She still doesn’t get it. She is spiritually blind to the very thing Jesus has been trying to say. The Father will do as He pleases with His rewards just like the vineyard owner in the parable. The economy of God’s kingdom is based on the way of the cross. You have to lay down your life in order to find it. For the record, James will be executed by Herod Agrippa. John will escape martyrdom, but not suffering. He will suffer the fate of the nations of Judah and Israel, living out his earthly journey in exile.
Matthew ends this string of episodes with Jesus healing two blind men. Ironically, Jesus asks them the same question He asked the mother of James and John: “What do you want me to do for you?”
“We want to see!” they answered.
Jesus gives them their physical sight which starkly contrasts the stubborn spiritual blindness of the disciples (and, in the case of James and John, their mother).
Today, I complete my 59th lap around the sun. In the quiet I hear God’s Spirit whisper to my spirit the same question He asked of the wife of Zebedee. The same question He asked the two blind men.
“Happy birthday, Tom. What do you want me to do for you?”
The answer is obvious. I want to see, Lord! I want spiritual sight.

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