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Facing the Giants

(Og king of Bashan was the last of the Rephaites. His bed was decorated with iron and was more than nine cubits long and four cubits wide. It is still in Rabbah of the Ammonites.)
Deuteronomy 3:11 (NIV)

In the 20 years of this chapter-a-day blogging journey, my choice of which book we trek through has been typically haphazard. I don’t give it much thought, to be honest. As a right-brained creative, I tend to eschew straight lines and blueprints and embrace adventure of the unexpected. That said, I don’t think our current trek through Deuteronomy is coincidental. As we finished the book of Hebrews last week I heard the Spirit’s whisper in my soul. I need this.

This past year has been a season of transition for me. It’s still in process. We’ve come a long way, but we’re certainly not settled in the Promised Land. There are tasks and obstacles to be faced. Just yesterday I shared with Wendy how overwhelming it sometimes feels. Scary even. Like facing a giant.

This is a feeling with which Moses is very familiar.

Before there was Goliath there was Og, King of Bashan.

As Moses leads the next generation of Hebrew tribes to the Promised Land there are two major enemies standing in the way. The first one was Sihon, king of Heshbon who was rather easily defeated in yesterday’s chapter. The second enemy is a different story. For Moses and the Hebrews, Og, King of Bashan was their Goliath.

The text calls Og the last of the Rephaim. The Rephaim are a mysterious ancient people known for their unusual size. Archaeology has unearthed remains of ancient tribes with warriors who ranged from 6’8” to 7’2”. Today’s chapter records a parenthetical mention of Og’s iron bed which was 13 feet long. Og and the Rephaim were giants. and if I’m an ancient Hebrew whose average height ranged between 5’3” to 5’5” I imagine my knees would be knocking a bit at the prospect of that battle.

Beyond Og’s sheer size, he ruled over numerous fortified cities. He had a formidable army and a super-sized reputation. This was not an easy task that lay before Moses and the Hebrews. They had every reason to feel overwhelmed. Jewish commentators note that the first thing God says to Moses as the armies line up for battle is, “Do not be afraid.” This hints that even Moses who has miraculously and successfully led the Hebrews out of slavery and through the wilderness was even feeling overwhelmed by fear in that moment. Even great leaders quake.

Courage is not fearlessness but moving forward in spite of trembling knees.

The previous generation of Hebrews refused to enter the Promised Land out of fear of the “giants” who inhabited the land. Isn’t it interesting that God leads Moses and this next generation up against a giant before they even reach the Promised Land. It’s almost as if God is ensuring that there won’t be a repeat of last time. If His people experience victory over the giants outside the Promised Land, they won’t fear rumors of giants inside of it.

The Hebrews are successful. Og is defeated along with all his cities. His 13-foot iron bed becomes a museum piece for travelers passing through Rabbah of the Ammonites. The next generation of Hebrews experience a huge boost of faith in God’s promises.

In the quiet this morning, I find a much needed reminder for the waypoint on life’s road where I find myself. There are moments for all of us when we’re facing our own giants. Sometimes they are just rumors. Sometimes they are very, very real. In either case, God’s message never changes. It’s the same as He said to Moses.

“Don’t be afraid. I’ve got this. Trust me. Take courage. Move forward.”

And so, even with knees knocking in my spirit and despite the nagging feelings of being overwhelmed, I move forward into this another day.

If you know anyone who might be encouraged by today’s post, please share.

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Opportunity in Interruption

For two whole years Paul stayed [in Rome] in his own rented house and welcomed all who came to see him. He proclaimed the kingdom of God and taught about the Lord Jesus Christ—with all boldness and without hindrance!
Acts 28:30-31 (NIV)

Over the past few weeks, I’ve mentioned that our local gathering of Jesus’ followers has been talking about “interruptions.” Sometimes life interrupts us with unexpected tragedies, challenges, or obstacles. Sometimes God interrupts us like Saul on the road to Damascus. When interruptions happen, how do we react, respond, and cope?

Today’s chapter is the final chapter of Acts. Luke obviously brought it to a conclusion before Paul’s earthly journey was finished. The events and experiences Paul went through, even in today’s chapter, are a good reminder that life does not always turn out the way we want or expect. Paul is shipwrecked. A poisonous viper bites Paul and dangles from his outstretched hand before he shakes it off. The castaways find themselves spending three months on the island of Malta, which none of them had even heard of, and dependent on the kindness and hospitality of others. When Paul finally does get to Rome, he is literally chained to a Roman soldier day and night while under house arrest.

I spent some time meditating on how I would have reacted and responded to these circumstances: shipwreck, castaway, snake bite, house arrest, and chained to someone 24/7/365 for two years.

Luke ends with a rather positive proclamation regarding Paul’s attitude. He was welcoming, upbeat, bold, and optimistic. He used his chains as an opportunity to share the love of Jesus with his guards and to be an example through his words and actions as he welcomed guests and extended hospitality to everyone. Paul was able to see the golden opportunities in life’s interruptions, including his chains.

In the quiet this morning, I find myself thinking about life’s most recent interruption that surfaced this past Friday evening. It was one of those moments when what you’ve been planning and expecting to happen for years suddenly vanished with the receipt of one unexpected email. Life’s trajectory suddenly changes. I can react with anxiety and/or fear. I can brood about how unfair it is. I can even look for a scapegoat to blame for this interruption. Or, I can “trust the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding. In all my ways I can acknowledge Him knowing that He will make my path straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)

I have learned along life’s road that when interruptions occur, my immediate emotional reactions aren’t very healthy or productive. When my mind, will, and spirit work together to respond with faith, I have the opportunity to see God’s opportunities.

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Stuck in a Moment

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But Esau ran to meet Jacob and embraced him; he threw his arms around his neck and kissed him. And they wept.
Genesis 33:4 (NIV)

Many years ago I found myself back in the stomping grounds of my youth. It was late at night and I ran into an old friend. I approached to say hello and discovered he had a drink or two too many. I was shocked to find that I was greeted with anger that felt like it was seething to the point of rage. He looked like he was ready to punch me, and the air was filled with violent tension. I quickly backed away and left.

I never forgot that moment.

Ten or so years later I ran into my friend again. Needless to say, my apprehension was high when I saw him. All I could think about was the tension from ten years before. I played it cool and chose not to initiate conversation. Imagine my surprise when my friend walked up to me with a smile, greeted me warmly with a big hug, and initiated a friendly catch-up conversation. It was as if the episode a decade before had ever happened.

That moment came to mind this morning as I read today’s chapter and the reunion between twin brothers, Jacob and Esau. In this case, it had been 20 years since Jacob fled into exile to escape his brother’s rage. The last thing Jacob remembered was the aftermath of stealing Esau’s blessing and birthright. Esau was spewing anger and vengeance. In yesterday’s chapter, Jacob hears that Esau is on his way with 400 men, and he is clearly anticipating Esau to greet him with the same anger and vengeance he remembered from their last meeting. He carefully devises a plan in anticipation of a violent outcome.

Imagine Jacob’s shock when Esau runs ahead of his 400 men to embrace him, kiss him, and weep at their reunion.

Along my life journey, one of the things I’ve learned about myself is that I have a very active mind, imagination, and inner world. It comes with being an Enneagram Type Four. This is a good thing in all sorts of creative ways. I discovered it to be quite helpful as an actor, allowing me to easily suspend disbelief and live fully in the world of a play behind the fourth wall. At the same time, my active mind can also become a hindrance.

They say, “Time heals all wounds.” Sometimes it’s true, but not if my brain replays that uncomfortable, tense moment with my friend over, and over, and over again. And, I did just that. I couldn’t let it go. It was like relational PTSD. All I had to do was think about it and I was right back in that moment, feeling all of the shock, apprehension, and fear all over again. It makes it hard for me to let things go. Sometimes, I’m unable to emotionally or relationally move forward from a moment. As U2 sings it:

And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it’s tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don’t really need now
My, oh my
You’ve got to get yourself together
You’ve got stuck in a moment
And you can’t get out of it

In the quiet this morning, I wondered if Jacob was wired the same way. Paul summed up his letter to Jesus’ followers in Philippi by telling them:

whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

I’ve discovered that doing this often requires me to find the “stop” button in my brain from continuing to repeat whatever mental playlist I have on a continuous loop. I have to force myself to consciously choose a different playlist that fits Paul’s description.

I’ve found that the path of spiritual growth requires me to recognize unhealthy and unproductive ways within myself, and find the self-discipline to address them. In some cases, this is easy. In other cases, it’s an entire spiritual journey all its own.

If you know anyone who might be encouraged by today’s post, please share.