He gives childless couples a family, gives them joy as the parents of children. Hallelujah! Psalm 115:9 (MSG)
For two years, Wendy and I have been praying for a child. For two very long years we've been deperately trying to get pregnant. I'll spare you all the details of what a long journey it's been, but it has been a very long, painful, expensive journey. I'm tired of praying. I'm emotionally exhausted from tears and faith unrewarded. I'm tired of the monthly roller coaster of hope and disappointment. I'm tired of sweeping up the pieces of my wife's broken heart every four weeks and unsuccessfully trying to glue them back together.
For the past three days the psalms have proclaimed promises of children to the childless.
God, I'm tired of trusting. I'm scared of hoping anymore.