Chapter-a-Day Psalm 109

Let it out. Oh, God, my Lord, step in; work a miracle for me—you can do it! Get me out of here—your love is so great!— I'm at the end of my rope, my life in ruins. Psalm 109:21-22 (MSG)

Reading the early verses of Psalm 109 is like reading the words to a death metal CD. I found it strange to read David's lyrics this morning. There is so much anger and vitriol coming out of David's heart. Not that I don't identify with his words. I'm a bit embarrassed to admit that I read verses 6-20 and can put a face or two on my own anger.

Then I got to verse 21 and find David peeling back the layer of venemous animosity that shrouds his heart. Underneath the hatred is a man reeling in his own pain. At the root of the curses is the calamity of David's own heart. Psalm 109 is a primal scream. It's a song of unabashed emotional pain poured out, uncensored, to God.

I think I filter my conversation with God too often. God is not surprised by my emotion. He is no stranger to my pain. He sees through the veneer of my hatred to the anguish of my soul. There is a healing virtue in pouring out my pain in a safe place. 

Jesus is a shelter in the storm, and He has really thick skin. 

Creative Commons photo courtesy of Flickrand Jelle Vermeiren

2 thoughts on “Chapter-a-Day Psalm 109”

  1. David seems to always cry out in a way that I can relate from some point in my life.
    A very wise lady once suggested that I learn what it means to truly lament to God. To not hold back, but to fully lament to Him … at the same time, remembering to do it at the foot of the cross with the purpose of leaving it there or handing it over to God.
    This is just what I thought of as I read this today. Thanks for a good reminder, Tom!

  2. Yet again we choose the same verse, Tom.
    21-25 Oh, God, my Lord, step in;
    work a miracle for me—you can do it!
    There are certain things in my life that I struggle with. I struggle with my weight. I struggle with my patience. I struggle with my attitude. There are many things in life that occur without thought or concern, but those previously listed always bring me back to God. They are the things that keep me from thinking that I can handle EVERYTHING on my own. I’m thankful that these things keep me grounded with God, but it is very frustrating to fail in areas that affect me and my family. David’s prayer resonated with me today because just a day or two ago I fell on my knees asking God to take over my weight. I have done so well over the past year, and yet while I am trying to live a healthy life, my weight has been creeping up again. It makes me mad. So I threw it to God again recently. He is the only One who can work a miracle in me. It’s not the food that causes problems ultimately. It’s something within me. When God helps get that right, the weight takes care of itself. A sad reality for me is that this will be a burden for me the rest of my life. I will need to establish a discipline in this area of my life unlike any other. With God’s help I can do that.

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